This is me

I've come to the conclusion somewhat recently that one of my greatest desires in life is that it won't be meaningless. Now what do I mean by that? I couldn't even really tell you that, it's an ever evolving thought that I only recently have come to grasp. To summarize it's current meaning to me, however, is something I can do for you, for myself.

My previous motto or meaning for life was, simply put, to live my life to the fullest without regrets so that one day I may look back and be proud of the journey I took. While I still share this dream it has changed somewhat slightly. I've come to realize that while that self assurance is all well and good, it alone will not make me happy with my years spent.

I want to live my life the way I see fit, along my own path on my own journey. I want to experience all that I can so that I may learn all that I can. I wish to regret nothing, embrace everything. And I wish to not simply fade away after my time has come with a sense of self satisfaction. I want others to learn from my time. Teach those that are lost without forcing them to see. Share my thoughts with those that would wish to hear them. From my future children to my present friends and forever strangers, I wish for anyone and everyone to be able to regard my stories as advice (with questionable reliability at worst) and learn something from me and learn of me.

I refuse to fade to nothing, depart this plane with no one to witness my absence. I will be heard, I will be remembered, I will die yet I will still live. This is my wish in life.

These stories are how I plan to make it happen.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Imma Imma Do Me

  Cuz nigga Imma Beast.  Basically what today's post is about is about haters, fakers, and demotivators haha.  Forreal though, If there is one thing I cant stand then it's when people try to think that they're superior based off of some bullshit fact that they decide to live by.  I mean when a person tries to talk to me like they KNOW me when they dont know shit and they try to judge me and anyone else based on their own made up elevated status.  It really pisses me off.

   Like seriously if for whatever reason you wanna piss me off then the two things that get me hot no matter WHO it is that says it are

  1. When someone tries to say stupid stuff like that I'm not black or that I'm not 'hard' or whatever.  trying to tell me like what I've been through in my life means nothing.  gets me sooooooo pissed off.  
  2. When friends or people I thought I was cool with suddenly change and act like they've done forgot who their friends are and try and make me look like some kind of enemy.  Like WTF?! I'm here trying to help yo ass out and be your friend and then you gonna turn on me?!!!!  And especially when they try and come back to me later like nothing was wrong or that it had nothing to do with me like how dare I be mad that they blew me off.  Gets me heated thinking about it.  

  Yeah so basically, if you ever wanna piss me off to the point where I'll kick you ass, then do #1.  

   If you ever want to ruin my trust in you and lose our friendship, then do #2.  

  I'm not conceited and I try to be everyone's friend.  I dont care who you are, as long as you dont piss me off I'm happy to be your friend because to be honest friendship is the most important thing to me.  But burn my bridges down and I'm not gonna fund the recreation project.  Fuck that.  I dont deal with BS like that.  That's what I mean by Imma Do Me.  Thats what I mean by Swagg.  Thats what I mean by Boss.  I dont deal with the bullshit because frankly, I dont have to.  

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